Adyashanti writes about this and I agree with him. Unlike Adya my first guiding teachers on the path to awakening were authors of books. They seemed to favour the path that woke them up and viewed alternatives as useless. On later reflection, and internet searching when it became available, these authors did not always practice what they preached and I lost faith in them. It was not until many years later that I met several awakened folk, and found it was interesting, enlightening and disappointing; they were not saints and not enlightened in a rounded embodied sense.
The path to awakening is unique to the individual. There are many similarities and wide paths like the major religions with mystical side paths that lead to more truthful gnosis. Much meandering seems normal for many sincere seekers and for me it was at times a down right minefield of truth with BS bombs a plenty.
No physical teacher can be with you 24/7…..obvious. As the years go by one acclimatizes to one’s own inner radar avoiding the BS, subtle marketing and ‘I’ve made it but you will never in this life, so require my spiel and satsangs regularly to make me feel enlightened’, the glassy eyed adoring fan meme.
For me prayers help to whatever inspires me; taking breaks and just watching tv during times of WTF do I do now; intuition or gut feelings regarding what to read or practice. Above all even though I do not know when the cliff moment will come, that’s the no going back of seeing the truth instead of backsliding into the head and ego, I just have the intention of paradoxically keeping on keeping on whilst surrendering to this with humour, anger, lust, frustration, love etc.
Key to Kensho!
Enjoy the cooking.
Dedicated to Prof. Kenneth Kushner, Zen Master.
Even though we are all source awareness ( a Timothy Conway phrase) the mind still plays it’s tricks. I am dedicated to see my sadhana through. I believe in a relative life after death and relatively we are souls; it is just a label but it seems to help at the moment.
After completing an online forum where one is guided to see through the self; the ‘self’ as a struggling mind still arises all well and good here and with it certain compulsions to alleviate suffering aka chronic tension. Thankfully I am working with this relative shadow self. I am observing the personnas in this cylce of dealing with them. I am not fighting them off or trying to fix things.
This all seems so slow to ‘me’ after so many joyful openings and peace. But it ain’t over till it is. Paradoxically it is over and never began lol from the absolute view.
I am using a mantra again, one given via email from a seasoned well educated realized person. Email you may say. Yes and from my 25 years of spiritual endeavour with grace it’s powerful and helping smooth some kundalini issues I’ve had.
As a man I admire says ‘see you on the flip side’.
Any one who has suffered intense pain knows how it just takes over all of experience. My back went out yesterday. I’ve experienced this before, the stabbing pain is all consuming and yet here was this ‘I’ awareness holding this. Knowing this awful pain.
Bliss or pain….. awareness is there always….our true nature. No effort required for awareness, our ground to be known.
Realizing it is the wide open space for everything to be.
There is no self, just this experience as it is from moment to moment. A patterning on and in a screen of nothing.
A vibratory web or net of ever changing conscious energy; a continuous surge of becoming, being and evaporating.
Without a centre.
Keep being aware that all that is sensed is sensed by objectless presence. Everything and everybody encountered is done so by sensing, there are no ‘things’ outside that. Even with psychic phenomena that to is only experienced by our senses.
Sensing is only known in awareness. Sensing is awareness. Hence all perceived things are this very same awareness. Hence not two, non duality.
I have no interest in cars as long as mine runs OK and each journey is safe… that’s it. However I do tend to attract folk who are really and I mean really into cars. I’m more of a UFO, Reiki, Ley Line type of guy. I lend my ear to these petrolheads as my partner’s son is also one of these types and when we meet at least I have material to chat about.
It’s all one Consciousness patterning petrolheads, UFOlogists, LGBT, corrupt politicians, Saints and sinners……what a play!
Shakti or the modulation of Shiva/Consciousness is our energetic body that is within us as the chakra and nadi system as well as our aura. Shakti is also the same energy that patterns others and the ‘outside’ world.
Taking this train of thought to a realization there is an equality, a total sameness between ‘inside’ and ‘outside’. In the game the play of Shiva/Consciousness it modulates the Shakti within us via its own/our experience over lifetimes. Some eddies of energy form knots within the chakra/nadi system; a result of the separate self play. So we get ego identification with likes and dislikes.
The journey back to our Self is merely untying the fundamental knot of identification or false separate idea by self inquiry aka contemplation to see if a separate i.d. is the case.
It can appear that this first knot can be re-tied…maybe. Else it’s just a case of having patience as the other knots, after the first, release during a life time and there is more peace, joy and fearlessness displayed as we go about our daily life.
I have had the grace of receiving shaktipat. Shakti or Divine energy permeates every thing, it is the energy of the Universe. I bought a book in a UK charity shop in the mid 90’s called ‘The Knee of Listening’ by Da Free John who since the writing of this book in the 70’s had changed his name several times. Da Free John was an American who as far as I can remember had experiences of what he called the ‘bright’ as a child and which he subsequently realized was the underlying energy/consciousness of reality.
Da Free John later met as a young man a dealer in Eastern artifacts mainly of a religious type called Rudhi. Rudhi had gone to India and had met a realized person there called Bhagavan Nityananda. Nityananda gave Rudhi the spiritual baptism of shaktipat which started a process of inner clearing and awakening of Rudhi’s energy body and consciousness. This process in India was recognized as a kick starter to awakening kundalini.
Back in New York Rudhi set up an Eastern antiques dealership being supplied by a devotee of Nityananda’s. Rudhi held meetings or satsangs where he sat on a stage in his shop and gave shaktipat just through his meditative presence. Da Free John met up with Rudhi and would over time receive shaktipat from him. Eventually Da Free John met another disciple of Nityananda’s, Muktananda in Ganeshpuri India. Da Free John considered Muktananda as his teacher but later reneged this acknowledgement and went onto write that he had attained a higher spiritual state than Muktananda.
In my opinion Da Free John was an eloquent and highly intelligent man but still had less than subtle attachment to his ego. Some would go as far and argue he suffered from megalomania later in life.
So back to this book. It is a long time since I read it but its impact is still doing its do on me or should I say the Shakti is as I received quite a jolt of Shakti from just reading it and looking at the many photos in the book. Following this initiation just by having this book I experienced years of kundalini kriyas and other inner and outer events that awakened me to my/your true nature. These occurrences are still on going.
I will leave it there and continue in Part 2 which will be a series on ‘Shaktipat and Awakening’ that will include my thoughts and feelings on Reiki.