Even the relative ‘I’

Is the eye of the



All seeing, all doing.

To even suggest to

Stop and open



Still the grace of Itself.

Full blossomed yoni,

Engulfing and birthing.


Capturing male ego,

Milking its wonder years

To old age and fear of loss,

Or love of liberation.


Ultimate She Devil

Dancing on breasts

And balls alike.


Her gifts are everything.

The Natal Chart, Transits and Self Realization



I am not a professional astrologer, but I am well versed with my natal chart. I am also well versed with ‘me’, my foibles, good and bad points more so now during my Chiron return. My chart as I look into it and the timing of transits is revealing as to the synchronicity of events in my life, thoughts and emotions.  Some coincidences have literally put me on my knees. The pattern of the planets, and asteroids and their energetic and archetypal meanings have mirrored my distant and near past experiences uncannily.

The hot potato of free will. More and more what is being revealed here is that there is no real choice. My study of astrology is showing me as above so below. That a cosmic plan is occurring way above and beyond my egoic understanding. The Consciousness of the Absolute holds the energy and moves it as it chooses, this appears as the multi dimensional levels and our physical universe as well as our body-minds. Astrology is a spiritual tool that reveals this to a seeker as and when the Ultimate and its expression behoves.

I am in no way saying this is the truth as I believe that cannot be expressed only felt, but have read and considered the words of Ramana Maharshi, Wei Wu Wei, Galen Sharpe, Timothy Conway and Ramesh Balsekar; of which do seem to point to a way of seeing the world that leads to contentment and peace in the conclusion that personal doership is an illusion.

As for the moral and ethical implications of this I will leave this out as this is yet another hot potato or rather 1000 degree steel ball.

Astrology, my spin as these above authors do not in my reading so far mention the subject, can be a doorway to this realisation of no self and non doer ship.

That all timing is or could be Divine Mother’s timing.

Lifting The Carpet.




Photo credit: ‘me’

Waking up is relatively straight forward. First there is usually an interest in wanting to know the truth of reality. Then thanks to media such as on the Unisphere…my term for the Internet, one can read of folk who have seen through to their truth nature and usually they point to it via blog posts, social media, or vlogs. For those finders in the market place selling their e-books or old fashioned paper variety of book can be purchased on-line or in store.

Satsangs or rather meetings in person with someone who has seen their true nature are useful but unnecessary.

What is being read here and now is done so by pure cognizant awareness, this same ground of being witnesses the mind and body and world. The ego is a self reflective feedback loop believing it as mind or an ‘I’ unchanging is real. It is not ultimately real, though conventionally it is. It is a tool, merely that. It can be a useful tool or a down right annoying little fecker to itself and other egos.

Awareness is unchanging and the Real, yet it appears out of ItSelf to be a created mind-body and world.  And quite convincingly it creates ‘personal’ suffering and an environment that is uncomfortable; this trickery is all used to bring back the weary to ItSelf.

Seen through though there is only ItSelf and no other. The holodeck of ‘outside’ is just that a phantasm, a circus, a black comedy or a zombie apocalypse even a Pureland… what ever the mind perceives it as such it is.

Lift the carpet though and there is just That, you are the clear mirror and that is joyful.

A Channelled Message of Unity

Separation is a thought and felt sense that is really just a common thing that we all buy into. Chancing a step away from the hive mentality and turning ones attention back into the viewer of all this ‘reality’ we find a no personality, a consciousness that is impersonal and yet so very much us, our natural state, also known as awareness.

God is this awareness, Divine Mother is this awareness, Buddha is this awareness, this natural looking view point is you and is the carrier of your ego-persona that operates here in this loka.

Higher planes of reality exist in this awareness, the ‘physical’ is merely a small brief experience compared to the higher dimensions  increasingly showing unity. Earth life can be harsh yet it provides the unique melting pot to awaken a soul if it desires a fast track to self or buddhic realization.


This was channelled by Arlon via the writer’s expanded consciousness.

Autonomy in relation to the Spiritual Path.

Adyashanti writes about this and I agree with him. Unlike Adya my first guiding teachers on the path to awakening were authors of books. They seemed to favour the path that woke them up and viewed alternatives as useless. On later reflection, and internet searching when it became available, these authors did not always practice what they preached and I lost faith in them. It was not until many years later that I met several awakened folk, and found it was interesting, enlightening and disappointing; they were not saints and not enlightened in a rounded embodied sense.

The path to awakening is unique to the individual. There are many similarities and wide paths like the major religions with mystical side paths that lead to more truthful gnosis. Much meandering seems normal for many sincere seekers and for me it was at times a down right minefield of truth with BS bombs a plenty.

No physical teacher can be with you 24/7…..obvious. As the years go by one acclimatizes to one’s own inner radar avoiding the BS, subtle marketing and ‘I’ve made it but you will never in this life, so require my spiel and satsangs regularly to make me feel enlightened’, the glassy eyed adoring fan meme.

For me prayers help to whatever inspires me; taking breaks and just watching tv during times of WTF do I do now; intuition or gut feelings regarding what to read or practice. Above all even though I do not know when the cliff moment will come, that’s the no going back of seeing the truth instead of backsliding into the head and ego, I just have the intention of paradoxically keeping on keeping on whilst surrendering to this with humour, anger, lust, frustration, love etc.

It’s been a while.

Even though we are all source awareness ( a Timothy Conway phrase) the mind still plays it’s tricks. I am dedicated to see my sadhana through. I believe in a relative life after death and relatively we are souls; it is just a label but it seems to help at the moment.

After completing an online forum where one is guided to see through the self; the ‘self’ as a struggling mind still arises all well and good here and with it certain compulsions to alleviate suffering aka chronic tension. Thankfully I am working with this relative shadow self. I am observing the personnas in this cylce of  dealing with them. I am not fighting them off or trying to fix things.

This all seems so slow to ‘me’ after so many joyful openings and peace. But it ain’t over till it is. Paradoxically it is over and never began lol from the absolute view.

I am using a mantra again, one given via email from a seasoned well educated realized person. Email you may say. Yes and from my 25 years of spiritual endeavour with grace it’s powerful and helping smooth some kundalini issues I’ve had.

As a man I admire says ‘see you on the flip side’.



Any one who has suffered intense pain knows how it just takes over all of experience. My back went out yesterday. I’ve experienced this before, the stabbing pain is all consuming and yet here was this ‘I’ awareness holding this. Knowing this awful pain.

Bliss or pain….. awareness is there always….our true nature. No effort required for awareness, our ground to be known.

Realizing it is the wide open space for everything to be.

No Self

There is no self, just this experience as it is from moment to moment. A patterning on and in a screen of nothing.

A vibratory web or net of ever changing conscious energy; a continuous surge of becoming, being and evaporating.

Without a centre.