Autonomy in relation to the Spiritual Path.

Adyashanti writes about this and I agree with him. Unlike Adya my first guiding teachers on the path to awakening were authors of books. They seemed to favour the path that woke them up and viewed alternatives as useless. On later reflection, and internet searching when it became available, these authors did not always practice what they preached and I lost faith in them. It was not until many years later that I met several awakened folk, and found it was interesting, enlightening and disappointing; they were not saints and not enlightened in a rounded embodied sense.

The path to awakening is unique to the individual. There are many similarities and wide paths like the major religions with mystical side paths that lead to more truthful gnosis. Much meandering seems normal for many sincere seekers and for me it was at times a down right minefield of truth with BS bombs a plenty.

No physical teacher can be with you 24/7…..obvious. As the years go by one acclimatizes to one’s own inner radar avoiding the BS, subtle marketing and ‘I’ve made it but you will never in this life, so require my spiel and satsangs regularly to make me feel enlightened’, the glassy eyed adoring fan meme.

For me prayers help to whatever inspires me; taking breaks and just watching tv during times of WTF do I do now; intuition or gut feelings regarding what to read or practice. Above all even though I do not know when the cliff moment will come, that’s the no going back of seeing the truth instead of backsliding into the head and ego, I just have the intention of paradoxically keeping on keeping on whilst surrendering to this with humour, anger, lust, frustration, love etc.